Exams

Today was an early one. Up at 7 to study. To some 7am isn't that early but any one who knows me knows I dont do early. My first exam wasn't as easy as I was hoping. With 2 exams left (one today and one tomorrow) all I can think about is sleep. Ahhhhhhh I want my mommy! !!!

New Year Wishes...

i have a couple of New Year Resolutions pending.
1. Personal relationship with God
2. Weight
3. School
4. personal goals, and dreams
5. etc..................

Sara Bareilles - King Of Anything

i love this song so much right now

missing home.

as finals week approaches all i can think of is home. all i want to do is sleep, eat and spend time with my family. i dont want to write papers, or take tests. God give me the strength and will power to end strong.

11/22/2010 New York, Day 2

first day in NY was pretty successful, day two started off amazing we were given a guided tour of the UN with a lovely girl who give great details and answered all questions. the UN was a wonderful place to be, i was inspired by all the projects and relief they offer all around the world. i would love to one day work for the UN or any kind of organization that helps others; i would love to do something good for the world. later that day we met at Grand Central Station for lunch. it was super nice, a fresh market and eateries on the lower levels. after lunch we boarded a train and headed for the MOMA. the MOMA, ahhh what to say...it was INTERESTING. not all of it was bad i loved some of the pieces, espcially MONET'S Waterlilies, and the screaming exhibit.
the rest of the day was spent all and about in NY, in the words of my mother "everything in New York is a show" i couldnt agree with her more, the subways, the streets, anywhere there are people there is bound to be a group of people performing and entertaining. i must say some subway performer are quite amazing. dinner and free time soon came to a close and i found myself back at the Y, loving my second day in the big apple.

new hair cut

(my exact sentiments)
i hate cutting my hair!!!! my hair doesn't grow fast at alllll, actually it takes forever to grow, my hair has been at the same length for 2 years now. i hate it, but my ends were shot to hell so i had to give in and cut it, i love the girl who did it she's great but why does it always seem that whoever cuts your hair always cuts to much.... you say one inch they cut 4;well i must embrace my slow growing hair because its here to stay:(

11/20/10-11/21/10, NEW YORK, Day 1

all excited and packed i boarded the bus for the 14-16 hour drive ahead of me. most of this bus ride was spent sleeping (uncomfortable sleeping at that). saturday night turned to sunday morning and we had arrived!!!!!!--in amish country... lol i was really expecting more, i wanted the town to be filled with bugys and people working; pretty much a scene from For Richer Or Poorer, freaturing tim allen and Kriste alley. well it wasnt, modern homes and the amish were living among the commoners:(
oh well a few hours there and back on the bus heading towards New York:) waking to honking and yelling is quite interesting but none the less i couldnt have been more happy to FINALLY arrive. New york was quite different than i remember, but still the same i guess; people everywhere, walking, driving, biking, rollerskating, you name it. we stayed at the "Y" (YMCA), supposedly modonna works-out there, idk if that's true but im sure she never spent a night there. the rooms were tiny!!!!!!! and so ghetto; but we were at the ♥HEART♥ of Manhattan and it was beautiful. across the street from central park one train ride from timesqaure, and countless other attractions. we unpacked and settled in, and headed for TIMESQUARE, we took our first train ride for the week and we were there, the lights, the people, the stores. i couldnt wait for the rest of the week, it was a great start to our trip. New York for a week, yay:)

my litle cousins painting.

she's amazing, at only 15. ahhhh i cant wait until i start painting. well actually i painted for the first time last night, super fun. totally ametur, lol even though my friends like it. this summer i plan on taking class so yay:)

love

things that make me happy

this week!!

quizzes-2
test-1
papers-2
photography projects-2

how many days= 3days. ahhhhhh


TIME!!!!!!!!

Justin Bieber - Somebody To Love Remix ft. Usher

up-coming blogs:)

so im back from New York and ive decided to do a blog a day for as many days i was there. so 1 week of blog. lol since school is crazy right now im not sure when i will start but i want to give New York justice. i also took pictures while i was there and i want to kinda talk a little bit about that and maybe be able to upload some pictures. a lot of pictures were ruined but ill get into that on a later date... 2 weeks left for this semester and im dying. grades are low and im running out of time and projects to bring up my grade. ahhhhhhhhh pray for me

NEW YORK!!!!!!!!!!!

yay i leave for New York in 1day:) i am very excited and quite nervous. i hope its an amazing trip.

My Lover, Unbeknownst to him:)

i love him:)

photoshoot with Aaron and Jackie:)

Silly Siutations:(

on firday during vespers the pastor reach a point where he talked about looking at evey situation and asking whether the choice you plan on making is the wisest. our choices should reflect our past experineces, current situation and future hopes and dreams. that evening i read a blog by Lara Jade, and awesome Photographer who said that if you are restricted from attaining your dreams at the current time then plan for them in your future. she say for everyone to ask themselves the same question daily. "have i done something towards my goal today?" two different outlets that point in the same direction, and by saturday i manage to ignore both and chose my impulses. my impulses have been known to be dangerous but i continue to let them rein in my life.
because of my actions on saturday i might have lost the repsect of others and put myself at risk. but in life we fall, and God is always there to pick us up. i hold on to that belief and pray that i learn from my mistakes. today is a new day and i must ask myself if ive done something towards my goals... hopefully at the end of the day my reply is different from yesterdays.

The WEEKEND!!!

i have noticed that the weekend was never more apprieciated as when i started college. the sabbath is a blessing. PAPERS, TEST, PROJECTS, MEETING.... all stop for the lord and his beautiful day. today i plan on spending it with friends and sleep. lol

Happy Sabbath to all.... enjoy the day God has set apart for rest and rejoice in his name.

Embararssment!!!!

so i decided to send my father a private text message about my financial situation. since i am a college student, and in these times of difficulties it is a given that some families struggle with their finances, and that isn't much to be surprised about. being in these "sticky situations" aren't fun but its life. you can sit down with a girlfriend/close guy friend and talk about it no big deal. what is a big deal is thinking you are sending a private message to your dad but instead you find that after you've pressed the send button it is now lost somewhere in cyberspace headed to the phone inbox of your CRUSH!!!!!! noooooooo!!!! embarrassing. grrrrr i wish you could erase message before they are sent to people, because i find myself very often sending messages that are intended for one person sent to another by accident. grrrrrrr... at least he didn't farther my embarrassment by responding; i know how that conversation would have gone... cricket, cricket

i gotta remind myself this too shall pass.

Motivation!!!!!

i am in NEED of motivation. for school, for life, my spiritual walk with God. with everything.



lol not a biker but thought it applied because im facing an up hill battle and this picture depicts my feels. expect for the bike.

Tug Of WAR!!!!

my whole life i've felt like im just a little slower than others. at 22 i think i might know what i want to do with the rest of my life--maybe. my senior year of college and my friends will soon be graduating and i will still be left here trying to figure out direction in life. i cannot say that i've learned nothing, i definitely have(through a lot of hard lessons) but im still behind the rest of the population is seems. i want so many things but focusing and putting my full dedication into something never really works; i lose interest so fast. with this realization, i've comes the understanding that my love life will also be affected. boys and love are the most interesting things to me but i DONT understand them. even those that dont like to "play the game" still wind-up playing. So now im left behind the rest of the class sort of speak, and with no rules or guidelines to help me finish successfully. what to do? why is love so hard, yet so easy? its like a tug of war except im the rope and im being pulled by life and decisions on one side and confusion and love on the other.

My Photos:)

So here they are my Photos. of course i have more and i do plan on loading some more some time soon but since this semester has been hard its be super hard to find time to edit and work on pictures for my own collection but these are a few of the ones i've worked on or turned into class.

The world seen through a Viewfinder

Its been almost a month since i started taking pictures. i've posed scenes or ive taken from what i see in nature that God has provided. Now the whole world is a picture and i constantly go around taking pictures and recording it in my mind. i set the focus, i.e. with my eyes and then i take the picture, lol by blinking. its funny how you can go your whole life looking at life one way and then it changes sometimes suddenly or sometimes gradually. i feel that i have been forever changed and all it took was looking at the world through a viewfinder.

The beautiful story of danny and annie!

so i found this video on a blog i follow and although people actually read hers and i only have one follower i still wanted to post this video for by any chance someone landed on my blog can watch this beautiful story.



http://vimeo.com/12562270

BUTTERfly Effect

BUTTERfly Effect
On Friday afternoon as i sat in class i heard a fluttering behind me, i turned to find a butterfly landing on the window pane. the blinds were drawn and the butterflies wings were dry and Deteriorate at the ends. In a dark room the struggling butterfly found the little bit of light coming from underneath the blinds. as i watched the butterfly struggle to find the light and possibly some form of salvation i noticed its desperation in the flapping of its wings. i waited until it calmed to a slow pace before reaching to open the blinds. when i opened enough of a space for it to at less see the sun light i looked to find the butterfly had lost its battle and died. i sat for a while thinking of the event that had just unfolded; the butterfly who was in the dark and shattered found its way to the light only to find it couldnt fully reach the sun; by the time i went to help it, it died. it made me think about life and how we sometimes find ourselves in the dark and after we've been battered and broken we go looking for the light only to sometimes be so close but so far away, and when when help finally comes it might already be to late. the small life of a butterfly made me remember that i should always strive to stay in the light and not be lost among the darkness; for in darkness we find no rest or restoration.
a moral lesson taught in my ethics class not by the professor but by the struggles of a helpless butterfly.

so im excited a new day and it feels like a better me....... so im going to be taking a photography class and i want to post pictures on my process. ahhhh cant wait.

ill be posting some photos my bff let me take on her camera and edit on her computer, lol i hope you like.
-CdM

unknown

do you ever feel like everyone in the world fits a certain mold and the mold used at your creation was completely different. i'm the type of person has has to grow on people, a friendship never comes easy or natural to me. sometimes i wish i was so different; sometimes i wish i was different and more the same.

as i start a new year i reflect on years past; i look at already committed mistakes and wonder if i've truly grown or have people just learn to expect my ways. all i can do for the new year is hope i can continue to pave out a way for myself and always learn to expect who i am without needing the reassurance of others.

new beginning:)

i saw that one of my closest friends created a blog and is getting her creative juices flowing; since i sit and allow my mind to fill with things i have no way of keeping off my chest with the way im currently living my life, i decided to start a blog and use it somewhat as a journal. so here i'll tap into a part of me i might not know yet.