photoshoot with Aaron and Jackie:)

Silly Siutations:(

on firday during vespers the pastor reach a point where he talked about looking at evey situation and asking whether the choice you plan on making is the wisest. our choices should reflect our past experineces, current situation and future hopes and dreams. that evening i read a blog by Lara Jade, and awesome Photographer who said that if you are restricted from attaining your dreams at the current time then plan for them in your future. she say for everyone to ask themselves the same question daily. "have i done something towards my goal today?" two different outlets that point in the same direction, and by saturday i manage to ignore both and chose my impulses. my impulses have been known to be dangerous but i continue to let them rein in my life.
because of my actions on saturday i might have lost the repsect of others and put myself at risk. but in life we fall, and God is always there to pick us up. i hold on to that belief and pray that i learn from my mistakes. today is a new day and i must ask myself if ive done something towards my goals... hopefully at the end of the day my reply is different from yesterdays.

The WEEKEND!!!

i have noticed that the weekend was never more apprieciated as when i started college. the sabbath is a blessing. PAPERS, TEST, PROJECTS, MEETING.... all stop for the lord and his beautiful day. today i plan on spending it with friends and sleep. lol

Happy Sabbath to all.... enjoy the day God has set apart for rest and rejoice in his name.

Embararssment!!!!

so i decided to send my father a private text message about my financial situation. since i am a college student, and in these times of difficulties it is a given that some families struggle with their finances, and that isn't much to be surprised about. being in these "sticky situations" aren't fun but its life. you can sit down with a girlfriend/close guy friend and talk about it no big deal. what is a big deal is thinking you are sending a private message to your dad but instead you find that after you've pressed the send button it is now lost somewhere in cyberspace headed to the phone inbox of your CRUSH!!!!!! noooooooo!!!! embarrassing. grrrrr i wish you could erase message before they are sent to people, because i find myself very often sending messages that are intended for one person sent to another by accident. grrrrrrr... at least he didn't farther my embarrassment by responding; i know how that conversation would have gone... cricket, cricket

i gotta remind myself this too shall pass.

Motivation!!!!!

i am in NEED of motivation. for school, for life, my spiritual walk with God. with everything.



lol not a biker but thought it applied because im facing an up hill battle and this picture depicts my feels. expect for the bike.

Tug Of WAR!!!!

my whole life i've felt like im just a little slower than others. at 22 i think i might know what i want to do with the rest of my life--maybe. my senior year of college and my friends will soon be graduating and i will still be left here trying to figure out direction in life. i cannot say that i've learned nothing, i definitely have(through a lot of hard lessons) but im still behind the rest of the population is seems. i want so many things but focusing and putting my full dedication into something never really works; i lose interest so fast. with this realization, i've comes the understanding that my love life will also be affected. boys and love are the most interesting things to me but i DONT understand them. even those that dont like to "play the game" still wind-up playing. So now im left behind the rest of the class sort of speak, and with no rules or guidelines to help me finish successfully. what to do? why is love so hard, yet so easy? its like a tug of war except im the rope and im being pulled by life and decisions on one side and confusion and love on the other.

My Photos:)

So here they are my Photos. of course i have more and i do plan on loading some more some time soon but since this semester has been hard its be super hard to find time to edit and work on pictures for my own collection but these are a few of the ones i've worked on or turned into class.