Tug Of WAR!!!!

my whole life i've felt like im just a little slower than others. at 22 i think i might know what i want to do with the rest of my life--maybe. my senior year of college and my friends will soon be graduating and i will still be left here trying to figure out direction in life. i cannot say that i've learned nothing, i definitely have(through a lot of hard lessons) but im still behind the rest of the population is seems. i want so many things but focusing and putting my full dedication into something never really works; i lose interest so fast. with this realization, i've comes the understanding that my love life will also be affected. boys and love are the most interesting things to me but i DONT understand them. even those that dont like to "play the game" still wind-up playing. So now im left behind the rest of the class sort of speak, and with no rules or guidelines to help me finish successfully. what to do? why is love so hard, yet so easy? its like a tug of war except im the rope and im being pulled by life and decisions on one side and confusion and love on the other.